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September 16, 2005
More Oklahoma
So, here I am again in Oklahoma City. It's been okay so far. I brought my PS2 with the Dance Pad and I've been playing DDR Max2. Every time I play, I have to hang my shirt in the bathroom or something, because I'm dripping wet within 15 to 20 minutes of dancing like a madman. I think the last time I drank this much water was when I was in boot camp with the USMC.
I also finally began writing again. I'm trying to write about my life experiences. Prior to this trip, every time I sat down to write, I would get too emotional and never put a word on paper. It's still emotional, but I'm just going to feel the emotions and hopefully put them on paper. I haven't written that much because I've been doing too much blog reading and maybe a little too much DDR Max2. The little I wrote brought back some emotions that are hard to deal with, let alone the possibility of someone else reading it. So I think one of the reasons I like playing DDR because it's a bit of an escape from that. Besides, it's nonstop fun.
So, anyone who is reading this and wants to pray for me, just pray that I'll bear with it and write my "autobiography" finally. I've waited too long and I just need to get it done. Thanks all.
Posted by fabijo at September 16, 2005 08:37 PM
Responses
I'm praying for you, and I can't wait to read it. You have much to say, and it's time for others to hear/read it too!
Much love, and I miss you tons!
Posted by: glassgirl at September 16, 2005 10:27 PM
Hey son. When I had to write papers all the time in grad school, I always had a hard time starting because I would think too much about it. Finally, as the dealine neared, I would just write without thinkging so much. Just get idea down on paper no matter how bad the format. Eventually, the ideas started to flow and I saw how certain paragraphs fit better in certain orders. That's the wonder of a word processor. Imagine if you had to type it all on an old Underwood typewriter? Write without regard for your (potential) audience. Write for God.
Posted by: Pop at September 19, 2005 03:32 PM
Hey Fab,
Miss you here in NYC... I'll be praying for you, and I can't wait to read your book when you have it ready!
I'm sure God will inspire you with whatever He wants you to write!
Posted by: Raquel at September 19, 2005 06:01 PM
I don't know if I could write such a story. We all have thoughts we'd rather not expose to the world, or have done things we'd rather forget.
Posted by: Pop at September 19, 2005 11:41 PM
Dear Fab,
I think I caught a few glimpses when I was in Freshman Comp class with you so many years ago. I can't even remember the teacher's name. You wrote some painfully sad stuff at times. It drew my heart closer to you though, because of your vulnerability.
That same grace you would give a homeless person or a older woman in an 'English as a second language class', you need to funnel into your own heart and into the lives of every person that hurt you.
I have been realizing lately that when I judge others I was judging myself for the same things unwittingly! So instead I give people more grace and find more for myself.
The parts of your story that I know remind me of Joseph's story...or at least the outcome; What man meant for evil God used for good!
I will pray for you, Fab.
Posted by: Aaron Evans at September 24, 2005 05:11 PM
Thanks everyone for your prayers. I've written a little here and there. I just want the writing to come from my heart and not make myself look like a victim or that I've done no wrong. The hardest thing is exposing myself, but I know I must do it.
Jesus exposed Himself as he hung naked on the cross.
Posted by: Fabio at September 24, 2005 06:35 PM