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May 13, 2005
The Dark Times
I just woke up. It's almost 1am here in OKC. I was seriously being attacked by a demonic force while I was asleep. A couple of weeks ago, I knew that some dark times were coming. I know that things much worse than a little nightmare will be happening soon. It's all a trial. I still believe that God is in control and He has a good plan for my life. So I thank Him for the coming trials (and especially for the warning).
Just before I woke up, my nightmare is kind of diffucult to put into words. I felt an overpowering presence that kept trying to put fears into me and showed me images of my kids and Glaucia. At some point I was on a cliff in the dark trying to reach a box of something. I started to wake up, but the presence got stronger and stronger and I couldn't move. I felt like God told me to get up, but I tried and something told me that I couldn't do it. Suddenly, I woke up to a loud knocking sound. I sat up in my bed and prayed. Nobody was at the door, so I don't know what the knocking sound was.
What I am interpreting all this to mean is that Satan's forces are trying to discourage me from loving my enemies. They are trying to tell me that I can't. Well, that's true. Look at Mark 10:26,27:
They were even more astonished and said to Him, "Then who can be saved?" Looking at them, Jesus said, "With people it is impossible, but not with God; for all things are possible with God."
I have God's Spirit within me and it is Him who lives out His love. It is my job to submit to Him. I have to admit that I'm a little nervous about what's going to be happening, but I know that God will not let me go through anything beyond what I can bear. So if it is something very harsh, I am amazed that God places that much trust in me. I keep praying for my family, because that is probably my biggest weak spot.
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The day is coming when the world will fade away and we will all stand naked before our maker. We came here alone and we will leave here alone. I am looking forward to that day!
Posted by fabijo at May 13, 2005 06:51 AM
Responses
Hey Fab, I think the best way to deal with the 'Dark forces' within, is to rise above them rather than to place too much energy into trying to attack them head-on. There is the law of Reversed Effort. The more you try to not have something in your life, the more you get that thing. The mere fact of hating or fearing something, gives it a lot of emotional power that just makes it grow in importance. It is better to replace it with something better than to try to use your own will to defeat a bad habit. That would apply to smoking, negative thoughts, etc.
You are right, that your family is the most important thing. What do you mean by they are your 'weak spot'?
Talk later,
Mr. Pop
Posted by: FabSr at May 13, 2005 12:24 PM
Hey Mr. Pop -
You are right about fearing or hating something gives that something power over you. Last night, this something was trying to enter my heart, but it did not because I relied on God. I believe that it was God's mercy waking me up.
What I meant about my family being my biggest weak spot was that I could easily handle an attack from Satan if it didn't involve anyone I loved. So, if someone I loved had to suffer because Satan was trying to get to me -- he'd be hitting a weak spot of mine.
I know you aren't too much into demons and angels, so you can interpret all of that however you will. :)
Fab
Posted by: fabijo at May 14, 2005 12:02 AM
Good realization Fab. The last one didn't sound like you much. Your responses to the comments make you sound like yourself again. Maybe some things are better kept in a dream journal. But, then I can't make any comments on them which I do like to do.
I got a good laugh out of that mule in the air.
Talk to you later.
Posted by: FabSr at May 15, 2005 06:00 PM